Life in Fort McClellan

1280px-CDP_7-28-07_Smaller[1]Today is the first day of my training for Ebola care in a tropical setting. I arrived last night at the Center for Domestic Preparedness in Anniston, AL. I was surprised to learn that this is the site of the now close Fort McClellan. It closed in 1999 and changed into a training facility for various disasters. Among the cooler things that are kept here is active ricin and Anthrax. They actually work with the real stuff. Fortunately, the Ebola students don’t have to work with anything so deadly.

The accommodations here are very nice. Every meal is all you can eat and delicious. The old mess hall has been converted into a regular restaurant. As pleasant as the food is, the company is even better. I’ve spoken with the heads of disaster preparedness for hospitals, overseas doctors and nurses, and everyone in between.

We are staying in the equivalent of a private hotel room. I share a bathroom with the room next to mine, but otherwise you wouldn’t know it was different from a hotel, complete with an ice machine at the bottom of the stairs.

The only caveat to all this is that they do believe in a military schedule. Classes get going at 7:30 AM and the place really gets going at 5:30 AM. Classes run until 5:30 PM, so lots to learn in these next few days.

One of the funniest things for me has been watching the local news this morning. They are lamenting the ‘Cold Front’ and ‘Cold Conditions’ this morning. It was 39 degrees. I hesitate to mention that where I came from, 10 plus inches of snow are supposed to fall today.

Well, time to head off to my first classes. I expect to bake quite nicely in the full Ebola attire.

-Chip

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Would an Ebola Quarantine Work?

quarantineThere has been a lot of buzz about the possibility of quarantines of health care staff. It is time that someone explained how a quarantine works and discussed whether it makes sense in this setting.

What is a Quarantine?

An important distinction needs to be made between quarantine and isolation. Isolation is to take people who are infectious and isolate them to prevent them from spreading the disease. Isolation can be mandatory or voluntary. Historically, Ebola has had mandatory isolation but for the most part, patients and families were willingly isolated to prevent the spread of the disease to others. Isolation is very good practice for a disease like Ebola.

A quarantine is more aggressive. Quarantines are where a population of healthy people are isolated because they might become infectious. They are usually involuntary because no one wants to be locked in with infectious people. It is usually accompanied by aggressive state actions to enfoce the quarantine.

When would a Quarantine make sense?

The justification for a quarantine requires two elements. First, the illness must be infectious. It would make no sense to quarantine cancer patients because they can’t transmit their disease. In the epidemiology community, the measure of infectivity is the Basic Reproduction Number or R-Naught (written as R0). It is the number of people you would expect, on average, to get an illness from an infectious person. Influenza has an R0 of 2-3, smallpox 5-7, measles is 12-18. The 2014 Ebola outbreak has an R0 of about 1.7 in West Africa. In the US, it is much lower with only two transmissions from the seven patients who have been treated.

The second factor is the severity of the illness.  Ebola, of course, is one of the deadlier illnesses out there, so its severity is certainly enough that isolation and quarantine are worth considering.

Both factors are important. Rabies and Mad Cow disease, which are nearly %100 fatal, do not require a quarantine because they are relatively difficult to transmit. Chicken Pox may be very infectious, but it is not so severe that we should consider isolation and quarantine. We would live in quite an oppressive society is the common cold was justification for isolation just because it was infectious despite the fact it is fairly benign as an illness.

What are the Advantages of a Quarantine?

At least in theory, quarantining an illness should isolate it to a small group of people where it can be safely treated or allowed to fizzle out on its own. To separate the potentially sick from the healthy does protect the healthy and may minimize the spread of the illness.

Another major advantage of quarantines is that they are a simple solution that makes the healthy feel safer. Quarantines are usually done by the healthy to the potentially sick. It allows the local leaders to say they did something which pacifies a frightened public.

One of the most justifiable and terrible quarantines in history is Typhoid Mary, who was an symptom free carrier of Typhoid. She was quarantined for 26 years of her life to protect the public from the outbreaks of typhoid that followed her. She was essentially imprisoned for life because of a disease she had.

What are the Disadvantages of a Quarantine?

Quarantines are not particularly effective. The only moderately effective quarantine I can find is management of Mad Cow Disease. It involved slaughtering 4.5 million head of cattle, which was the only effective solution because Mad Cow is universally fatal and untreatable.

Of course, this is not an option for humans. Quarantines have been rare in modern times. In 2007, a man named James Speaker was quarantined with extensively drug resistant tuberculosis. The last American quarantine before him was in 1963.

Quarantines can pacify a large segment of the population, but they often enrage the quarantined. During a smallpox outbreak in 1983, Local authorities attempted to quarantine the municipality of Muncie, Indiana. The population did not believe they had smallpox and several local officials were shot. Not only was the quarantine unenforceable, it created more problems than it solved.

Another difficulty of quarantines has been how often they are thinly veiled racial oppression. When a majority views a minority as dirty or disease ridden, it lowers the threshold necessary to quarantine them as a group. In 1900, California quarantined a section of San Francisco which was almost exclusively made of Chinese immigrants and their businesses. The effects were devastating to the local businesses and the quarantine was later thrown out by a federal court.

Does a Quarantine make sense for Ebola in America?

Ebola is certainly a dangerous illness with a 70% fatality rate in West Africa. A quarantine was tried in Liberia and Sierra Leone and both seem to have had no benefit and generally only aggravated an already tense public.

Ebola also is quite contagious to those performing funerals and direct caregivers of the sick. So the basic criteria for a quarantine are met in West Africa. Despite this, the quarantines that have been tried were failures. The energy and resources placed in the quarantine would have been much better spent on caring for the sick.

So would and Ebola quarantine in America make sense? The severity of Ebola in a modern health care setting has been much better than in Africa. There has been one death of Ebola in the US with this outbreak of the seven who have been treated. The death of Thomas Duncan was not surprising because even when he came for treatment in Dallas, he was sent home for several days. Despite this, Duncan only gave Ebola to the people you would expect him to transmit to, direct caregivers.

In fact, despite a botched handling of that outbreak, no one in the community developed Ebola. This is consistent with European treatment of Ebola patients where only direct caregivers of the sick have gotten Ebola.

So Ebola is not as severe nor as transmittable in a Western setting. This is not surprising as the toilet may be a greater safeguard than anything else. To take those infected body fluids away and have then adequately treated is probably more important than all of the personal protective equipment on the planet.

Taking all of this into consideration, I think a quarantine of health care workers or civilians who are not sick (which is to say, not contagious) would be neither effective nor beneficial. It is a political band-aid for a non-existent problem. In the history of this outbreak, no one has caught Ebola from a Western health care worker and no one has caught Ebola on a plane. There is simply no evidence to justify a quarantine.

But if even one person would get Ebola, wouldn’t a quarantine be justified?

This is an objection I have found is pretty common. As long as the life of a West African carries as much weight as an American, then this makes no sense. The small risk of an American getting Ebola much be weighted against the hundreds and thousands of lives that traveling health care staff going to West Africa can save. It only makes sense to say this if their lives don’t count. And their lives count!

Isn’t it selfish of those health care workers to risk the public by not quarantining themselves?

No more risk than when you get behind the wheel of your car. 34,000 Americans die in car accidents every year, so far one has died of Ebola ever. When you stop driving for public health reasons, get back to me.

As I have argued before, the burden on the health care workers who go overseas is heavy and to make it heavier only discourages us from going, which is a loss for everyone.

In conclusion

Let me end by asking that we, who want to go to West Africa, not be hindered. Care enough for the dying in West Africa to allow us to go and do what we are good at. It is no risk to you and a very great risk for them. Love them enough to overcome your fear.

And even if you are afraid, know that quarantines don’t really work that well. Find a better solution before you shackle us with a quarantine.

-Chip

Seven Difficulties Health Care Workers Face to Fight Ebola

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As a nurse, I am one of the many who wishes to run toward Ebola. Don’t credit us with too much courage. We of all people know how manageable Ebola is and how few health care workers get it when good precautions are used and how many fewer die when given good treatment. Ebola is not as dangerous as advertised.

We see how many will die in West Africa if no one runs toward the explosion. In our protective gear, we are quite safe from contracting Ebola unlike the people of West Africa are in danger with about 70% of the infected dying. With the total cases now crossing 10,000 and a bleak future ahead if nothing changes, we feel the urgency to go.

With the new quarantines in New York, New Jersey, Illinois, and Florida, it is becoming increasingly difficult. There is a presumption on health care workers that our time and resources are acceptable sacrifices so that Americans can feel safe from their irrational fears. While West Africa is in serious danger, America is not. Even if 1000 sick patients got in a plane today and flew to every major American city, the outbreak would be under control within a few weeks.

The very first case of a nurse returning to the U. S. from an Ebola ward shows how needlessly aggressive the quarantining of health care workers can be. She was not treated as a kind person who took a risk for others and more like a  criminal waiting for the DA to charge her.

I don’t believe the public at large understands the sorts of barriers we face in getting to West Africa.

I hope to show you the difficulties I have faced in my own attempt to go to Liberia so that you can see that our help should not be presumed upon. We are not asking for your support as much as we ask that you not stand in our way.

1. The Fear for my Family

My greatest fear in all this is to come home and give Ebola to one of my kids. This is a remote possibility and a devastating one. It weighs so much on me that I plan on not returning home for the 21 days I could be infectious.

Lest I be accused of being hypocritical, I am not returning home because I can’t avoid close physical contact with my kids or my wife. It’s hard to avoid close contact with the lady sleeping in my bed or the kids climbing in my lap. I plan on returning to work (I have a phone job, so no close physical contact there either) and resuming my normal life. The public is at a minimal/non-existent risk and my life is not terribly inconvenienced.

Additionally, I will be checking my temperature multiple times a day and would promptly report a fever to the authorities. It is entirely possible I will be hospitalized with full protective gear for a minor stomach bug, but so be it.

2. The Fears of my Family

The next greatest weight we carry is the fear of those who love us. They mean well and wish for us to be safe. Of course, if I were sick with Ebola, my family would hope someone who had the resources and knowledge to help would come from far away to help me. I am hoping to be that person for someone else’s son or sister or mother or friend.

Their concern is not crazy. This is a dangerous disease. I don’t fear for myself because I am not in particular danger, but I understand their concern.

3. The Financial Pressure

When I go, I will be using my vacation time to do it. In fact, to even take three weeks of vacation time is difficult for my employer. I can’t support a house payment and our other expenses while taking significant time off. In addition, I am adding some expenses even though most NGOs pay for the travel and expenses there. Who will shovel my driveway when it snows? There are countless little things that need to be attended to while I am gone.

4. Work Pressures

My employer has been very understanding of my trip. Even so, many of my coworkers aren’t thrilled with the idea that someone who has been near Ebola will be working in the cube next to them. I suspect that I will given a wide berth when I arrive back.

Additionally, I feel that because people would be concerned that I should alert them that I have been to an Ebola hit country. I don’t want them to wonder if they should have shaken hands with me. They should be afforded the courtesy of making that decision for themselves even if I am comfortable with it.

 5. Public Pressures

Many health care workers have been afforded a return from West Africa like the Vietnam Veterans received. Many are thankful for their sacrifice and a vocal and frightened few are quite vicious to the nurse who was needlessly quarantined in New Jersey.  Here are several choice examples just posted in the comments from the link above:

Nurse Medusa with the outdated snake hair,showing her true liberal democrat selfish roots.

Then Jesus said, ‘How selfish of you to care for the afflicted at risk of your own life. And how dare you complain about unwarranted ill treatment on your return. You must be a liberal. I hate you’.

If she was a responsible health provider, who respects her profession and her fellow Americans, she would have quarantined herself for 1 month before stepping on a plane home. Isolation is a key factor when trying to contain an epidemic, one does not have to work in the health sciences field to figure that out. Selfish and ignorant!

I now see the Kaci is going by private carrier to her home in Maine where she will “self quarantine”. A small part of me hopes she develops Ebola, and like the Dallas nurse recovers fully.

Additionally, we are treated like public property. There is no great discussion of the rights of these workers. As a libertarian myself, I have been stunned at the lack of discussion of the civil liberties of the health care community. We are not a resource or commodity, we are human beings.

6. The Difficulty of Even Getting To West Africa

It is not small feat to get the time to do the CDC training and get over to West Africa. While many of the NGOs pay for the travel, it is a lot of time and phone calls to even get to that point. We, like all of you, have busy lives with many responsibilities. Getting to West Africa is no small feat.

7. The Uncertainty of How the Government will Treat Us

When I take off in that plane to go to West Africa, at any moment the policy of Minnesota or the Federal Government could change requiring me to be quarantined for three additional weeks on my return. It would be a serious financial burden on my family if this happened.

A week ago, I might have agreed to go through JFK or Newark airport once I returned, now I will specifically request to avoid these airports to avoid the quarantines that have been placed there. There is even talk of health care community of flying into Toronto and driving home to avoid these onerous requirements.

Should I go?

As you can see, there are many barriers to going to serve these patients. I don’t want applause for this, I simply don’t want to be hindered. A few more roadblocks and, in the name of public safety, I will be prevented from going at all.

If we don’t go to help those in West Africa, this outbreak will spread and grow. Do you think that if Ebola exploded in Guatemala it would be contained well there. Wouldn’t it then march into Mexico and start walking across our own border there? The only way the U. S. will be safe from Ebola is if it is stopped where it is.

Without the aid of U. S. health care volunteers, it will never be stopped in West Africa. For their safety and for your safety, please let us go unhindered and return without barriers placed before us. If we don’t go, who will?

-Chip

Five Reasons We Are Afraid of Ebola

quarantineWhen Thomas Duncan, a Liberian man who lived in Texas, was diagnosed with the Ebola virus, the reaction in the community and the press was strong, surprisingly strong. I had anticipated fear when a case came to the US (something that was nearly inevitable), but not this level of fear.

Even as I write this, the headline story on the Drudgereport is Ebola is ‘disaster of our generation’ says aid agency. There are countless stories discussing every step Mr. Duncan took and the thousands of people he might have come in contact with. Unfortunately, Mr. Duncan died of Ebola. The news would have ended there except that two of his nurses have since contracted the virus. With fresh fervor, the hysteria reasserts itself.

This fear is out of proportion to the danger. It is no surprise that a patient gets Ebola and some of his caregivers get it. certainly there were serious failures of the health care system in this case, but if the total price we pay for those mistakes is only two infections, then we should feel fortunate. After puzzling over this for some time, I think there are a few explanations for this deep fear we feel as Ebola walked onto our shores.

1. We Overestimate Dramatic Deaths and Underestimate Boring Ones

Humans are terrible at estimating danger. We fear snakes when mosquitos kill a million people every year. We are afraid of bears when white-tail deer kill about 130 people a year. We fear flying when about 1.24 million people are killed in car accidents every year worldwide. We fear Ebola, which has killed about 5,000 people so far and yet ignore influenza which kills about 250,000 to 500,000 every year.

Ebola is definitely the diva of the deadly viruses. Symptoms such as vomiting blood, uncontrollable fever and shaking, terrible diarrhea, and bleeding from the eyes and ears make it a virus out of a zombie movie. If drama makes for great news coverage, then Ebola makes great coverage.

2. We Fear that Ebola will Spread in the US like it does in West Africa

One good watching of the movie Outbreak would make me fear Ebola too. While Ebola is not the virus in the movie, it is clearly based on Ebola. Dustin Hoffman is telling us to close the US border, right?

The fact is that Ebola is not as contagious as advertised. The lengths we are going through to establish Ebola as an airborne threat indicate how difficult it has been to show Ebola spreading through the air. But it does not spread like influenza or a cold virus.

Close physical contact accounts for most if not all of Ebola spread. Think of who got Ebola from Thomas Duncan, it was two nurses who had, you guessed it, close contact with Mr. Duncan. To worry that it is spread by casual contact is to borrow trouble. Certainly it is possible, but it doesn’t seem to be happening. If you are a nurse caring for an Ebola patient, an abundance of caution is justified. If you are a member of the general public in the US, any fear you have of getting Ebola is unwarranted. You should be more concerned about white-tail deer.

3. We Fear the Unknown

Ebola is very other. It is foreign to us: far-away. Ebola epitomizes the dangerous jungle illness that has never been seen on our shores. This frightens us.

Now that Ebola is here, among us. We’re not sure what to do. There is this feeling that we shouldn’t have to face this. It ought to be someone else’s problem. The fear of this unknown drives us to feel silly things like that we should be immune or protected from it simply because we are here and it should stay over there.

While understandable, the only cure for fear of the unknown is to get to know it. Knowing Ebola doesn’t cause panic, but like anything dangerous, we learn to treat it with respect. Far from being unknowable, Ebola can be known. We just need to take the time to learn.

4. It is an Election Year

Ebola has a great marketing plan going. It chose to arrive in America in the months leading up to a Federal election. There are countless candidates looking for a stage to be heard from. There are very few stages more popular than one that pretends to protect the public from a dangerous disease.

Playing on our fears to get our attention, many have blamed the Obama administration not primarily because they care about public health, but because blaming the administration is what one does to the opposition party in October.

This is understandable, but very frustrating when it aggravates some of our most uninformed fears. What galls me the most is that it is working? Certainly the CDC and the hospitals involved should have done a better job, a much better job. But by reading the headlines you would have thought hundreds or thousands had Ebola in the US, not just three.

5. There is a Deep Distrust of the Health Care Establishment and Politicians

There is a deep and growing distrust of the health care establishment and of politicians. After years of wondering if cancer treatments really help, if vaccines are safe, should we really have antibiotics in our meat, and asking just when they figured out that this drug has a tragic side effect, the casual observer has a general distrust of the health care establishment.

It is worsened when Dr. Friedman, the head of the CDC, represents both politicians and medicine. It is further aggravated when he does the tried and true political process of providing the same talking points answers no matter what the question is. We feel manipulated because we are being manipulated.

But just because he is playing politics does not mean he is wrong. I wish he would give the straight answers to the questions. No, he should not be fired. Yes, the CDC was too slow. No, closing the US border to West Africans would not help. Yes, America is safe from a large outbreak of Ebola. Maybe the political environment makes such straight answers impossible, but I wish he would give them.

To Love People, We Need to Calm Down

Most of the fear we are experiencing over Ebola is not justified. We are reacting to our own anxieties and prejudices and not to the situation we are in. Ebola is not a serious threat to public health in the U.S. Heart disease is, but it lacks the drama that Ebola brings to the table.

The fear we experience is preventing us from considering carefully how we should proceed. There is a chorus of voices demanding that people from West Africa be prevented from entering the US. This might prevent some US cases of Ebola and it would certainly sentence tens of thousands to millions of West Africans to die. Ebola has been successfully contained throughout Africa for decades and even recently the outbreaks in Senegal and Nigeria have not had a new case in weeks.

The fear of Ebola is causing people to demand that health care workers who have cared for Ebola patients be quarantined for 21 days. This sounds like a grand plan unless you are the health care worker who has bills to pay and a life to live. By placing this artificial requirement, you make it very difficult for nurses to provide care for these patient. It does not protect the public and it is a bandaid political solution to a non-problem.

We need to accept that some people in the US will get Ebola. Some of them will even be cute ladies with dogs. Some might even be nice people we would like. Ebola will be spread to a few in America and it will stop there.

The same cannot be said for West Africa. If you are there you should be afraid. You should be cautious in public places. They face the prospect of living through Ebola and starving in the famine that is coming. They are dealing with homes where mom and dad have died and children are left to survive on their own. We should see through the blindness of our fear and have compassion on these people. They are in danger and we are not.

-Chip

The Image Above is courtesy of Jason Scragz and used with permission.

Consent (the new basis of right and wrong)

consentIndividualism has some profound blessings to give the world. Free markets, the freedoms of speech and religion, the marketplace of ideas, are all gifts of individualism. The faith statement of individualism is that I have autonomy: the right to choose what happens to me.

Now if I lived on an island by myself and my actions had no effects on others, then I should be fully autonomous. Free from responsibility and, somehow, miserable. Being the very social beings that we are, if I lived alone on an island, I would wish I wasn’t alone.

Then another person, maybe my wife, is added to my tiny world and I am overjoyed. I am no longer alone! But problems arise quickly. Who gets to canoe today? Why should I be the one who collects firewood? Why do you snore so much?

The dilemma is intense. While I desperately want this other person there, they cramp my style.

The broadly accepted modern solution is consent. The way we get the most out of our island is to work together and do things we agree to. We take turns. We learn boundaries (which is basically saying we learn what is yours and what is mine). Consent is very functional. If everyone is consenting, then no one is complaining.

Eventually, we decide that consent is not only functional, it is the basis of morality. Centuries ago, the argument for what is right and wrong was based on our understanding of God and what he wanted. You and I might consent to something, but he had veto power over the decision.

With the marginalizing of God, the only thing we have left to appeal to when someone wrongs us is that they violated our autonomy: we didn’t consent.

A good example of this is Brittany Maynard, a terminally ill 29-year-old in Oregon. She has a glioblastoma, which will take her life in the next several month. With the laws of Oregon supporting her, she will take her own like on 11/1/14. In her recent campaign for more legal suicide laws, she justified her decision by saying:

“I believe this choice is ethical, and what makes it ethical is it is a choice,” she says. “The patient can change their mind right up to the last minute. I feel very protected here in Oregon.”

Her proof for the rightness of her decision is her autonomy. She argues it is right because she had a choice and because it was a choice, it is right.

Another example is when nude images of Jennifer Lawrence and many other actresses were hacked off of their phones recently. Many of these actresses had posed for nude pictures before and they had been published, yet they are outraged. Jennifer Lawrence put it this way

“Just because I’m a public figure, just because I’m an actress, does not mean that I asked for this,” she says. “It does not mean that it comes with the territory. It’s my body, and it should be my choice, and the fact that it is not my choice is absolutely disgusting. I can’t believe that we even live in that kind of world. ”

Of course it is an outragious violation of Ms. Lawrence to steal images of her to be ogled at by countless men. But her argument is solely based on her lack of consent. Had she consented, then displaying her nude images would have been fine.

Despite being such advocates of consent as the basis morality, we still want to hang on to objective moral authority when we need it. When Janay Rice chose to remain with Ray Rice after he punched her in an elevator (knocking her unconscious), we shook our collective heads. When she forcefully defended her husband after her was suspended by the NFL, we were aghast.

On what ground were we so stunned by Janay Rice’s decision. It certainly wasn’t consent, she was choosing to stay with him. We start fumbling with terms like “cultural expectations” and “it’s just not right.” When pressed, we might even invoke the name of God.

But this is picking and choosing. How is it that abortion, gay marriage, and sexuality are only about consent while physical abuse is different? We want to be free from any restraint for ourselves but are ready to explain to someone else why they shouldn’t smoke on their front porch.

If morality is not based on an objective, unmoving standard, then there is no morality at all. You can try to base it on cultural expectations, but this quickly becomes a mere voting contest where 51% tell the other 49% what to do. Democratizing morality is really just another form of oppression.

The Christian view of God being the maker of right and wrong is not popular until we are harmed. I don’t want God invading my choices, but I would really prefer he limited yours. We define freedom as unlimited choices when real freedom is protection from my own heart. What individualism tried to do is to protect me from you. What it could never do was to protect me from me. That’s why consent will never work as the lone basis of morality. It assumes that what I want is good and right: that I will make wise choices.

There is a long Christian tradition of distrusting my own heart that is so wise, so countercultural, and so timely. As Paul says:

For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin. Romans 7:15-25

The cross of Jesus stands tall above us all and assumes our foolishness and forgives. It is strength for our weakness, healing for our sickness. Individualism could never do this. Consent, to my heart, is just a tool to get what I want without too much fuss. It could never change what I wanted.

Christ alone condemns my sin and forgives it at the same time. Freedom is not unlimited choices, it is making my desires congruent with His. It is the congruence of our hearts with the heart of our maker. It wanting to do what is right. That can only happen if God changes our hearts.

Consent is a band-aid we use to cover the deep wound in our souls. It masks some of the more ostentatious sins in our hearts, but it can never heal our hearts. For that, we need a healing much deeper and a physician much more powerful. By God’s grace, that is just what he provided.

-Chip

What Your Facebook Wall Says About Your Heart

facebook likeHearts are treacherous things. It is always difficult to see what this monster inside me is trying to do. My heart is deceitful, just like yours. Jeremiah even refers to it as “desperately sick.” There is a long Christian tradition of distrust of hearts and desires. As the wise philosopher Pogo the Possum once said, “I have met the enemy and he is us.”

One of the great difficulties of taming the heart is the myriad forms this evil takes. There is a modern notion that people are intrinsically good (except for those bad people). There is no justification for this idea other than it is quite comforting to believe it. Generally, when I try to assert that people are good, I am really making a much more personal statement.

I am saying that I am a good person.

Now, I must defend this sentiment. Evidence comes up all the time that says quite the contrary. If I am so good, why do I want to yell at my kids, envy my neighbor’s car, sleep with that girl? I know these things are wrong and yet I want them.

Feeling the tenuous support for my assertion of my goodness, I must do some mental gymnastics to keep cognitive dissonance from killing me (for an excellent book on the sorts of gymnastics we do, read Mistakes Were Made: but not by me). I can, for example, say that I deserve my neighbor’s car. I work as hard as he does. My kids were being little demons, yelling at them is totally justified. If God made all those beautiful girls, why would he say I can’t enjoy them.

Our powers of rationalization are nearly limitless. When Muamar Gaddafi was killed by revolutionary forces, one of his last words were, “What did I do to you?” I think he meant it. I think he had no idea why these people he had brutally ruled for decades would want him dead.

What is frightening is that I have the same monster living in me. Mark Sayers in his book Facing Leviathan argues that one of the great problems humanity has is that when our heroes save of from a monster, they don’t account for the monster inside them.

We would be wise to identify the monster and name it for what it is. One useful tool to do this is actually just a few clicks away. That’s right, your Facebook wall.

Take a look at the last ten posts you put up.

It’s OK, we’ll wait.

….

Back, good. Why did you post what you did?

Maybe you lambasted those idiots at some organization. Was it a selfie? Maybe it was an adorable thing you kids just said. A quote that you found inspiring. A rant about that guy who cut you off in traffic earlier. A complaint about the weather.

Behold, your heart.

I recently was talking to a friend about selfies and he noted that they are usually put up by ladies more than men and more often by single eligible ladies than any other. So a selfie, for them, it partially motivated by the desire to get a guy. There is that desire that everyone feels to be wanted and attractive and nothing does that like a selfie with 42 likes.

How many men have put a picture of themselves up with their beautiful girlfriend? In their hearts, they know they are showing everyone else how special they must be to have that girl at their arm. What about that picture of a cat? Part of the message you sent was, “See how funny I am.”

Closer to home. Here is the last post I put on Facebook.

The creatures outside looked from pig to man, and from man to pig and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which. -Animal Farm

Now this appears harmless. I just finished reading Animal Farm and this is one of my favorite quotes in all of literature. It is also important to me that you knew I read it. I want everyone to know that I am a literate and intelligent person and nothing does that better than to post a quote from a book. Yep, none of you will think I’m stupid. I read a book.

What about the post before that?

You just know that every tech company is right now developing a phone bending machine to determine if their phones bend too easily.

This is innocuous enough. But I know that this will affiliate me as part of the cutting edge group discussing the recent difficulties with the new iPhones. Chip sure is a cutting edge guy. To top it off, do you sense that fun sarcasm? I sure hope you do!

Even as I write this blog post, the monster inside me stirs. Wow, people will sure know that Chip is a guy who knows his weaknesses and is willing to be out there: authentic. honest. Chip is one great guy. One of the great joys of Heaven will be to have that monster silenced forever.

Some will object that I am being too harsh. The post of grumpy cat was actually quite funny and harmless. If we second guessed every single sentence on we wrote or said, we would quickly stop speaking. Every sentence could have a possible poor motive ascribed to it.

This is true. A result of reading this could be that everyone is so concerned about this that they never post anything, write anything, or speak to anyone. The goal of life is not simply to fail to sin but the honor and love God. I hope to cause some introspection, but only enough to cause you to look outside yourself to the God of all speech.

But in your searching of your heart, consider not just what you posted, but what you didn’t. There are many things that are not appropriate to place in a public setting like Facebook. Your bathroom habits should not be a public discussion nor your brothers troubled marriage. We should keep these private matters just that, private.

There are also those matters we fail to bring up because they reflect badly on us. I have been known to go back and correct spelling in my posts not because I want to make a more pleasant appearance for the reader, but because I don’t want to look stupid. Would you ever post a bad picture of yourself because it is a great picture of someone else? There are a delightful few people I know who regularly talk about their weaknesses and pains, but most only discuss their successes and virtues.

I don’t mean to say that everything said is done from a poor motive, I hope this whole blog post is helpful to me, my friends and family, and the church. I know my motives are mixed. Knowing that does not force my silence. Reticence to make a mistake is as dangerous as being cavalier. Edmund Burke said it well, “All tyranny needs to gain a foothold is for people of good conscience to remain silent.”

While some will be tempted to silence, most of us will fail to take Jesus seriously. For example,

I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, Matthew 12:36

The monster inside me starts to justify against the words of Jesus. Then James follows up with an even harsher message.

So also the tongue is a small member, yet it boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by mankind, but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so. James 3:5-10

What? A fire lit by Hell! The monster revolts at these words. James is clearly exaggerating. What Jesus and James are asking is impossible!

How can I fight the monsters out in the world when even when I defeat them, the monster in my heart will replace them. This is the dilemma when Frodo offered Gandalf the One Ring, he responded:

Gandalf: You cannot offer me this ring!
Frodo: I’m giving it to you!
Gandalf: Don’t…tempt me Frodo! I dare not take it. Not even to keep it safe. Understand, Frodo. I would use this ring from a desire to do good…But through me, it would wield a power too great and terrible to imagine.

Human beings are far more majestic and powerful creatures than we ever imagined. We are more like Gandalf than we realize. Being image bearers of the Holy and Powerful God of the Universe is something we barely understand.

So what do we do? Clearly we need to talk and clearly our hearts have deep motives that we don’t understands. Thankfully, God did not leave us without guidance. The Psalmist struggled with his Facebook feed just like we do.

Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting! Psalm 139: 23-24

Talk to God about it. He knows you fully and loves you! He knows what is good and what is evil. The technology is new but the hearts are not. The Psalmist had a problem in his heart too and he felt safe to go to his God with it.

Humility is not the failure to be proud. It is to stare deeply into the soul of your God and to be overcome by Him. We have a God who is surrounded by unimaginably powerful angels day and night yet somehow, amid all of that grandeur, he loves you. This is an amazing thing.

So look at your heart for a minute and look at your God forever. Some should leave Facebook because it is too tempting for them. Most of us should live in it wisely. As Jesus said:

The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks. Luke 6:45

Who is the good person? The lover of God. If you want to redeem your foolish heart and speech, God alone is the source of a pure heart. How is the monster slain? By going to the God who has already killed it. Jesus killed the monster. It is in its death throes in my heart today. Soon, very soon, I will die and it will die too. Then I will be free.

Until then, rejoice in the slayer of monsters. Watch the monster in you die slowly and Jesus’ power in your life grows. The solution to the weaker joy of wanting approval from people is to trade it for the greater pleasure of being approved by Father or Heavenly Lights! That, my friends, is very good news.

-Chip

The image above is courtesy of Sean Macentee and is used with permission.

Against Againstness

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Inside my generation is a gnawing need to be part of something. To belong to something greater than ourselves, to be part of something great.

The problem is that belonging to great things involves a lot of work and determination. We aren’t really into working or determination, so we choose the next best thing.

Againstness

You see, it is easy to belong to a growing mass of critics. You read watch a video of Ray Rice punching his wife. You are filled with outrage. You tweet a nasty denunciation of Ray Rice, Roger Goodell, The Baltimore Ravens, the Western Culture, Men, and the spiraling failure of humanity. If you are especially industrious, you even wrote a blog post about it.

Take a deep breath. That was hard work. You did something.

But you didn’t. What you did was join the large mass of humanity in agreeing that Ray Rice had done something terrible. You aren’t a lone voice bringing attention to a terrible situation. You are part of a large self-congratulating mob patting each other on the backs for how much they are against domestic violence. Againstness gives you the illusion of doing something. As Barnabas Piper clear shows in his article Defined by What We Aren’t, againstness is at its best laziness and at its worst Pharisaical.

Throughout my teen years I traveled with an organization called Teen Missions International. Every year, the great Bob (he has a last name, but we all just called him Bob), would stand in the darkness on commissioning night. We were all ready to have a pizza party that night as we headed out to our overseas work, but Bob would solemnly say.

“Do you see this darkness. It is better to light a candle than it is to curse the darkness.”

He would light a single candle in that large tent. We would see the outlines of people even in that large space, with the lighting of a single candle.

Darkness cursing is easy. Candle cursing is even easier. Wouldn’t a bigger candle be better? If you really want to light that space, why not get some big halogen bulbs? Candles are bad for the environment. That message he spoke after lighting the candle wasn’t that inspiring.

Bob did something. The rest of us are just critics.

Hating sin is not loving God. Hating the effects of sin is not caring for people. We need to define ourselves by what we are FOR.

Yes, I know. This sounds an awful lot like work. We need to make a hard choice, stop pretending we are loving people by being critical of their enemies. Don’t pretend you love God because you hate his enemies. We need to actually love our God and love his people.

Ironically, this is really mundane. Loving God looks quite boring, even domesticated. For most, it means living a quiet life working their jobs and loving their families. It means we complain less and compliment more. It means looking at God and asking why I don’t delight in him more.

The greatest sinner you know is reading this article right now. Is it possible that you are so critical because you feel your own sin. It is easier to justify my sin if Ray Rice and Chris Brown are evil. At least I don’t do that! But that nagging knowledge that you have failed your God won’t go away.

The cure for againstness is to look deeply at what God has done FOR you. If you are so screwed up (and you are, much more than you realize) and God loves you so much anyway, WOW. That is good news. When you look out of your broken heart and see other sinners, the bent of your heart won’t be to condemn, because if I condemn them, I condemn myself. God does not condemn me, even though he really should.

I want that for others too.

We stand with the God of the Universe at our back and in front. With that kind of security, we have so much to be for and too much work to do. Sometimes that means being against evil. Most of the time it means proactively teaching and training and loving and building. It means being rather boring most of the time. If we don’t build, the world will fall apart.

So let’s do some building.

-Chip

I would also like to recommend the excellent book Facing Leviathan by Mark Sayers. In its pages, I discovered much of my own againstness and where it came from.

The image above is courtesy of Acid Pix and is used with permission.